Well, I can now say I’ve some…not growing pains, but shrinking pains. I’ve had some rough, emotionally frustrating days here in the motor home. A combination of my sensitive nature, mixed with adjusting to the down-sizing. NOTHING is the same, but I try to also keep in mind that EVERYTHING is temporary.
Dealing with the technological issues is one of the biggest pains! I threatened yesterday to throw ALL of my devices in the river. Too bad I’m horribly against litter, or maybe that’s a good thing.
Every day it seems like I have to clean up a spill. Often it’s Bella’s drinking water, or our food. Cooking and the lack of counter space is one of my thorns, but I’m determined to work through it and to get creative. Also need to revamp, once again, my desk/work area. My mind is racing with ideas, got up in the middle of the night to scan Pinterest. Got a couple of possibilities.
An issue I also have, is that having a fused ankle in a small sppace is like having a hook on my leg. Seems to want to latch onto everything and drag it around with me…FOR REAL!? Clothing, cords, the dog, you name it, it’s been hooked and dragged to another location. Funny, but not.
So yesterday I took a nice long solitary walk to the river, laid a few tears upon the tide and said good bye to them. On my way back to the RV, I rounded a corner and came across a man walking his dog. Not an ordinary man, this man put me in my humble place as soon as I saw him, more so after we talked. He had NO LEGS…he was riding a kid’s hover board so he could walk his dog, having the time of his life with his new-found toy. He had such a great spirit and seemed so blissful. He affected me without knowing it. I love moments of clarity such as that!
So today, I woke up feeling grateful and more peaceful. It’s gonna be a good day! I even ate breakfast with a few ants. After they drowned in my milk, I couldn’t tell them from the crumbs of shredded wheat, and I didn’t cry!
Life is good!